This is such an irony. But at a time like this, of all things I can be fighting against, I’m fighting a rebellion. The people I want to help are in rebellion, even though they probably don’t know they are doing just that, constantly going against the advancement of Your kingdom. They’re taking a step forward and two steps back. It’s heartbreaking to know. But God has other plans.
Joshua 10:8
The Lord said to Joshua, “Do not be afraid of them; I have given them into your hand. Not one of them will be able to withstand you.”
Not one of them will be able to withstand me.
Withstand what?
Withstand my love! Withstand my efforts. Withstand my patience.
My weapon is the spirit and my shield is faith, everlasting, deep faith.
Of course, it’s not them per say that I’m fighting. It’s the sin within them. The ignorance and the unbelief.
Until the sun stands still and the moon stops at its orbit.
Matt Chandler’s message got me thinking about our attitude towards brokenness, especially in the lives of believers. Many people think that if certain ugly aspects of their lives are revealed to the outside world, they will lose their credibility as bringers of the Gospel message. They hide it pretty well. In church and bible studies, we challenge people to grow towards Christ-likeness, but we forget to make them aware of their brokenness. Where is God’s grace? We must celebrate our brokenness and how this broken being is continually being made whole in Christ! Sinners must first rejoice!
A video about second chances, through the life of Ted Haggard, a pastor who fell from grace.
If Christians can start living out the Gospel and stop treating it like just some kind of conversion story, we can have some really powerful testimonies and witnesses arise around us today.
If I’m David, who’s Jonathan?
God.
Called by many names, known by one people.
Who seek Him in His temple.
Gospel.
The message of the Bible, story of redemption.
Culminated in death, reborn in resurrection.
Grace.
As sinners we rejoice in failure,
For in us there is no more fear.
Praise God! Praise God!
For His grace alone can save 
The more I think about it, the more I’m concerned how my heart knowledge isn’t exactly matching up to my head knowledge. Not simply a matter of being numb. Somehow I missed a step in between, and it has left me wondering how I can reconcile them both.
I’ve been looking outward for too long and failed to see the small little details of how things should fall into place. Too much of the grand scheme of things. Too little of the valuable details. Nobody likes reading just world news alone.
Touch the deep recesses of my heart. Reveal to me the abyss of my thoughts. Speak into my life, O Lord!
let me “lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety” (Psalm 4:8).
